I assume one day I will have a handle on working. If the work is being done for a client that obviously gets my full attention and deadlines are met. However, for myself I am not as prompt. I’m not sure this has to do with procrastination. It just takes a long time to sort through yourself. When making art that is expressing you it can be a long complicated process. Anyone can learn to draw but, to make it clearly a piece from your hand is another level.
Getting to work on my own art off and on over the past ten years has made this feel cumbersome. I get going then have to stop the process to take my work to a conference. I now see these as road blocks. I’m not sure I ever should have started going to conferences regularly until I was solid within myself. Maybe one or two to start but, then I should have stepped back and focused on myself. I apparently really enjoy doing bureaucratic things and helping make organizations work.
I wished I had gotten more focused time when I was younger. I look back through college and early working years and I always allowed myself to be over committed and was pulled in 6 different directions at all times. Art doesn’t work like that. You have to sit and focus and be in yourself to get the work to come through. I wished someone had told me then, to be a successful artist you don’t have to do so many extracurriculars. This isn’t high school where you are trying to prove yourself to get into college. This is art. It wants all of your attention, give it!
Of course, being realistic too not every person can find themselves as soon as they leave college. It takes some people years to fully develop their skills. I am definitely one of the slow ones. I do feel lucky I have been able to slowly work through a lot in all of these years. I don’t regret my path, I was able to gain a lot of other knowledge with the choices I made. I’m not sure 10 years ago I would have been this open to myself; I’m ready to focus on me now.
I have one more show coming up this year, December 8th Holiday NightLife at the Cal Academy of Sciences through SF Bazaar. It will see the end of some pieces, my Specimens. I hope to take the creatures back to life in my future work and make dioramas instead of preserving them in jars. I hope to have two small dioramas available and prints of these dioramas at this show.
I hope to expand my letters. Over the years numerous people have requested a set that spans more languages. I had one dedicated person give me a list of animals I could put into the letters for such a project. I also will make it possible to print longer larger name prints.
Keep an eye out for these updates. Daily updates come through my instagram which is linked in photos in the lower left corner of this webpage. Blog updates will probably continue to be scattered. Life keeps happening with deep distractions and writing is still an uphill battle for me. However, many painful holes have been filled in my life lately and I’m hopeful it will continue providing space for more positive writing time.
Time to make some art.
*I want to acknowledge that I am saying I shouldn’t do shows while announcing one. Getting your work out there is part of the balance in an artist’s life. And while it is important to focus on my work there are shows I am more than happy to participate in. This show focusing on science and art is one of them.